Birthday Outfit

So I know this is early to be planning my outfit for my birthday, but at school on Friday I saw this girl wearing the cutest outfit. It was composed of the red AA mini-dress, black tights, and white granny vintage boots (Keanu bought me these boots in black). It reminded me so much of Christmas and would be perfect for my winter-themed apparel. However, the shiny red is the most expensive out of these 4 and only available online and in XS. Maybe it'll go down and become available in small by the time I go about buying these items. If not, I have the choices of shiny champagne, navy, or black. I'm really excited :]

Obsession

So, since Tumblr has grown to be a major part of my life, I've developed a new love. Film photography. I have so much appreciation for these grainy, vintage-eqsue photos. I wanted to take digital photography in grade 11, since I have my Nikon DSLR, but now I wish to own a Nikon Film SLR and take film photography at school. Since this obsession started I began to cheat and add film grain to my photos on Flickr. :P

Long Time No Post

Wow, it's been over a year now. I had a post sitting in my drafts, waiting to be finished, but I never got to it and it just went to waste. Tumblr has actually been occupying my absence from Blogspot. I really love it there, but what used to be a personal online journal has just become a pretty film photo blog.

This blog originally started off as my guide to searching for my future careers and dreams. I can say that since I've started high school, I know what I want to do with my life. I used to be so confused, not knowing what to tell people when they'd ask me. But now, I've decided to become a dermatologist. My first sure decision was a psychiatrist, and I had that as my dream job for a while. Until, I went to the spa with my mom and sister and got a facial for the first time. My specialist conversed with me and asked what I wanted to be. I told her how I wanted to be a psychiatrist, but that I was also looking into dermatology. After all, ever since the 5th grade, I had been obsessed with skin, hair, anything relating to beauty actually. She told me that dermatology would be a really good choice because they make lots of money and can basically give people whatever they want in appearance. I could create products that actually diminish wrinkles (should be helpful for my mother when she starts to age). I could help cure hopeless teenagers' acne. There's so much I could contribute to future and I feel that this is something that's really for me.

This blog will now just be a personal home for all of my inspirations for the future. For my dreams, my passions, and anything in between.

Personal Hobbies or Lifelong Passions?

I never really took notice of this, until the other day, one of my close friends, Morgan, asked me "is there anything you can't do?" She then proceeded to list the many things I enjoyed doing in general and spare time. "You can sing, dance, draw, cook, cut hair.."
I didn't really think of these things as talents. I mean I love singing, but I don't feel I'm that great at it. Many people say I should join American Idol, or become a singer, but that's not something I really want to do in the future; it's not a very idealistic career either.

Dancing isn't really my thing; it's just something I like to experiment with or do when I want to cut loose or have some fun. I'm actually pretty shy when it comes to dancing in front of people, because I feel as if I'll embarrass myself. So, I only dance around friends I'm comfortable with or people who are fun to be myself around.

Drawing, it's something I've done ever since I was little. In the seventh grade, I became interested in Japanese anime and manga. I began tracing random manga characters in the beginning and began watching many animes. Then I started to practice drawing freehand, just by looking at an example and drawing what I see. But I lost interest for both over the summer, before eighth grade.

Cooking has to be one of my favorites, because I love food. I love cooking and baking all sorts of dishes. From full course meals to elegant desserts to simple snacks and appetizers. If you give me a recipe that's not too difficult to follow and the required ingredients, I can most likely make it. My favorite dish to eat and make is chicken fettuccine alfredo. It's absolutely delicious.
I've thought about becoming a chef or baker, but I feel I don't have enough interest to do something in the cooking industry for a lifetime.

Now, cutting/styling/experimenting with hair has been a personal hobby of mine since the seventh grade. Over the winter break of that school year, I got bangs for the first time, I was super stoked. However, my bangs didn't come out very well, since my hair was naturally wavy/straight and since that section of hair was much shorter; my bangs curled a lot. I, then, purchased my first flat iron. It was around $45 from target, meaning: cheap, damaging, and not going to straighten my hair very well. I managed to get my hair semi-straight through the schooldays. Then one trip to Vegas, during spring break 2008, I convinced my dad to buy me one of those expensive, 100% ceramic straighteners from a kiosk in the mall. The brand was 'amika', and it worked wonders. My hair came out pin straight, and I couldn't have been happier. Some time after we came back to LA, I decided to go into my bathroom, straighten my hair, and cut off a lot of my length and add lots of layers and fix my bangs. My hair used to be very long and all the same length, aside my bangs. I had no prior experience or practice with cutting my actual hair other than when I was little and tried to cut gum out of my hair. The ending result turned out really good, and I had a bagful of hair.

I also enjoy practicing photography, even though I'm just an amateur. Whenever I have my camera with me, or I see something really beautiful that needs to be captured onto a still image, I try to to snap a picture. I'd really like to get a professional camera, to expand my photographic abilities, but they're quite expensive. So I'll stick with my compact point-and-shoot digital camera, for now. However, if I were to pursue a career in the photography field, it wouldn't be much of a success financially--unless I were to become a magazine or wedding photographer.

So as you can see, I'm completely lost and unsure about turning my simple hobbies into successful fulltime careers. Hopefully as the days go by, I will find new interests that might just become my dream job.

But until then..
Fare thee well,
Jenna~

My Inner Pursuit

So I've decided to create a separate blog, to show the more personal, meaningful, passionate side of myself. Hopefully to discover who I really am, and what I truly wish to be.

Whenever someone asks me what I want to do for a living, or what I want to be when I get older, I am always unsure. I've taken the time to deeply think over the many possibilities, but I can never come to a conclusion. I sometimes fear that by the time I get to college, I won't know what to major in--what to work my ass off for four years in university for. I don't have any big dreams or anything I want to specifically pursue in the future, without them being too surreal . However, I do have many hobbies, passions, and interests .

This blog will consist of posts of those various hobbies, passions, and interests. I hope along the way, I will find something I really want to do when I get older. For now, this is my inner pursuit. :)