New Backpack

I've been yearning for a new bag, I actually don't even use a real backpack for school. I just carry my binder and books, and keep my pencil case, calculator and small necessities in a purse. I'm planning to buy this one from Urban Outfitters. It's so perfect. I've been wanting a leather-style canvas knapsack.

Love me, love me. Say that you love me.

Please me, please me. Show that you need me.

Thinking about buying these.

Don't you understand that I want you to come to me in my time of need? I'm desperate for love and care from you. I'm letting my pride get the best of me. I just want a shoulder to cry on, but I can't even have that..Why can't the little things that'd mean so much to me ever happen? I just want to cry..and cry and cry..

Pursuit of Happiness

Where did my happiness go? It's as if the acts of content I display are merely false representations. If someone makes me laugh, I will laugh. If someone says a joke, I'll playfully get irritated. But, when he talks to me, it brings out this anger. Maybe it's because we don't talk as often anymore because he lost his phone and when he abruptly stops, I become upset. And hold a grudge. Tonight was the first night we video-chatted since God knows when. And I wasn't happy. Sure when Edward was there, he made it fun because of his horrible singing and bad music. But as soon as he left and it was just us, it got boring..and I felt angry all of a sudden. It's strange how even though Edward was there, I didn't feel that anger. What's wrong with me? Why do I feel this way? I just want to feel happy again...

This is disappointing.

Today I got my AP Euro Unit 2 Test back. I received a C, and I am so fucking happy. Seriously, I thought I was going to get a D or fail. You have no idea how happy I was to see a 37/50 (plus my teacher made it out of 49 ^_^). My grade only went down 1%. Now, once I decide to start my freaking outline that's due Friday I shall be prepared for my Chapter 15 test on that same day. I'll finally rid of this C+ :')

Online Window Shopping

It's depressing.

XII

Forever 21 always has really pretty vintage-style dresses. I always see lovely ones that I'd like to buy, but unfortunately, they sell out by the time I come back to see if they're still available.

Stress

Today, I had an AP Euro Unit 2 Test. I probably did bad as usual.. I don't understand why I can't force myself to study more, I want to at least get passing grades on my tests and the last one I took, I got 25/30 and you have no idea how happy I was. I just want my grade out of the 70 percentile zone. I'd be so much happier with just a B, a high B, so I could really work at getting an A- or A. But I'm not even close. You'd think doing all your homework would help you, but even that doesn't provide much when you still get points taken off for doing something incorrectly. Everytime I receive something back, it's scary to record it. I know my grade could be so much higher if I just got one more question right on a test, or got the full credit on a homework assignment instead of 2 points off.

AP Euro is not easy at all..I regret taking it. I should've studied harder for my previous tests because now they've dug me into a ditch that's hard to escape from.