Pursuit of Happiness

Where did my happiness go? It's as if the acts of content I display are merely false representations. If someone makes me laugh, I will laugh. If someone says a joke, I'll playfully get irritated. But, when he talks to me, it brings out this anger. Maybe it's because we don't talk as often anymore because he lost his phone and when he abruptly stops, I become upset. And hold a grudge. Tonight was the first night we video-chatted since God knows when. And I wasn't happy. Sure when Edward was there, he made it fun because of his horrible singing and bad music. But as soon as he left and it was just us, it got boring..and I felt angry all of a sudden. It's strange how even though Edward was there, I didn't feel that anger. What's wrong with me? Why do I feel this way? I just want to feel happy again...